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i am sixteen. i am a total bookworm. i'm obsessed with broadway musicals. next to normal, spring awakening, legally blonde, rent. yeaah. i don't have a purpose for this account...i just like it. i don't care if you follow me or if you like what i post..i like it. done. ask me questions if you want more info.
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can’t do it

my friend asked me last night why i never wanted to get married.

it wasn’t the first time i’d thought of it and i knew exactly why, but it was the first time i had actually said it out loud to people.
i just can’t do it. i can’t put myself out there like that. i don’t think that risk is one i am ever willing to take. all i have seen in my life are failed marriages and what’s the point? putting it in legal terms? wearing a ring? those things don’t change humans. why would a piece of paper or a circle of silver cut off a person’s desires? or their wants for change? it’s stupid.
plus why should i be able to get married, but 11.7 million of my fellow “free” American citizens can’t? why should it be so easy for me to write off the idea, but so damn difficult for them to even think about it?

so the simple answer to why i am never going to get married or have children is that i am scared. that is why and i am not afraid of that answer because like i said that’s the simple version.

my worst fear is that one day she’ll actually call the cops and they’ll believe her lies…will my testimony be enough to keep my dad out of jail?